i really really dont want to be the bad guy. it creates too much negative karma. but i guess its been negated with the opposite reaction generated from the action. so its all cool.

Shit

i wana vomit.

saya tahu la tahi manusia memang busuk. Dalam dunia ini tak ada manusia yang mengeluarkan tahi yang berbau macam bunga Jasmine atau bunga Ros. Tapi entah kenapa tahi kamu busuk gila sampai aku memang mau muntah. Dahlah kamu adalah manusia yang setiap hari makan microwave food , tapi kamu langsung tak makan sayur atau buah buahan. Komposisi tahi kamu 99%daging dan 1%pati busuk. Itu sebab tahi kamu busuk dan keras macam batu. Saya habis berak dalam 2minit, kamu berak tak tau berapa lama banyak.

Dan dahlah kamu tahu cuaca sekarang panas terik gila, masih mau mengeluarkan bom busuk dalam rumah. Lagipun kamu tahu saya tidur di bilik sebelah tandas sekarang kerana tingkat atas terlalu panas (haba diperangkap di bilik tidur saya kerana udara panas menaik dan udara sejuk menurun akibat peraturan fizik) tapi kamu masih membiarkan pintu tandas buka penuh SELEPAS kamu mengeluarkan bom busuk awak. Tolonglah, aku sudah hampir mati keletihan setelah duduk peperiksaan hari ini, kamu mau bunuh saya dengan gas racun kamu ke. 

Sekarang semasa saya sedang menulis perenggan ini bau busuk telah meresap dalam bilik saya dan saya boleh rasa perisa tahi kamu yang busuk tak terhingga. 

Macam bau hanyir. 

tolonglah bertimbang rasa sedikit. toleransi saya sudah hampir habis. 

HAHA that was random

 

i have endured the past 3 days with less than 10%hp. its amazing im still alive. two papers back to back is indeed tiring.

anyway theres still bpa on thursday. going to replenish my hp 2night then its back to studying.

current mood: i want to check into a pokemon center and get healed to full bar hp

Oh my god. Im having a stress attack. Finished accounts paper this morning. I hope i can pass. There were just so many questions, i didnt manage to answer everythingg cause no time left. Right now have to focus on Macro.

its 3.30 am and im awake revising accounts. exam starts in 5 hours. and i have 4 hours to study.

slept at 10pm and supposed to wake up at 4am.

but its so hot i couldnt sleep at all. toss and turn. annoying heat.

even with the aircond on downstairs the upstairs floor is darn hot.

im so stressed over macro im posting about it twice in the span of 3 minutes. nearly had a stress panic attack. Wah i realllyx100 dun like the exam schedule lor. i think after accounts i would have to really revise hard. 

Im relying on aroma therapy to combat my stress.

I got this whole bunch of scented joss-sticks (made out of sandalwood i think) from the Chaplain of my college last year when i was doing my valedictorian stint. Now ive realized just how useful it.

breathe breathe breathe 

one day left until first day of exams.

i need to pray hard i pass my subjects, especially macro of which i have not been doing justice to.

thank you melbourne uni exam timetable planner for making Ata and macro one day after another. Already its the two most hardest papers of my semester, out of the 3 weeks examination period you just had to put it on monday and tuesday. Shit man.

and give me Pbl the easiest sub of the four on my last day after a four day gap. great.

i've been spamming accounts. spent the whole day doing macro. tomorrow back to accounts. then macro after accounts paper. Pray and wish me luck.

its time to kill the exam monster

Remember Remember the 5th Of November.

its 4.30 am and i just woke up. i slept at 2am mind you. its so hot. and i cant sleep. going to try and study a bit. havent been studying much tonight. maybe its the guilt that i didnt do much work thats keeping me awake HAHA.

exam in 5 dayss. 

one week til exams. 

SHIT. come on! wake up and study! 

damn i think im falling sick. 

ive been feeling faint and sick the whole freaking day. no i cant afford to fall sick.  not when its so close to exams.

i have less than 2 weeks to:

finish up studying ATA

finish up studying MACRO

DO BPA tutorials+ understand concepts

eugh. Oh and my mum came over. Pleaassee dont distract me okay. 

now i realize why i have been so unnaturally pissy and pessimistic about  people and things these past few days. 

i think im about to experience a social burnout. Sigh too much of a good thing is a bad thing.

therefore  im going to seriously hermit it out the next few days in my room. no more activities for the next 2 weeks and into exam week. 

Mug it mug it. 

BPA 18/20! 

Macro 18.5/20!

Cheer up!!

its sink or swim.

you know its bad when your ocf life starts to suffocate your private life.  

im feeling super random at the moment, hence the sudden burst of blog posts. Possibly due to the fact that im taking a 15min break from my Principles of Business Law notes and i dont want to suffer a meltdown. 

Anyway here is a random pic i snapped during photography camp. Its a flight of stairs. What the picture dosent show is HOW LONG the flight of stairs really is. Felt like forever just to climb all the way down. So imagine having to climb back all the way up. 

lol and i gave up on flickr. I reached the photo limit and they wont let me upload anymore. Stupid Sods. im going to delete my account and move somewhere else. 

its sad cause ive got a law exam 2mrw and im pushing myself to get my readings and cases done by tonight which is actually cutting it really close. Sigh and the 3rd assesment is supposed to be the hardest. 

its annoying to see some people just holidaying around and doing nothing with their life while the rest of us uni students have to study our asses off to do well in life. 

im being pissy with my workload. and finals are coming up nxt month. Greaaat. 

im seriously torn between two extremes right now... this is a really rare occasion of indescisiveness which is annoying the hell out of me. Cant i be given the power of foresight?

i pray that you give me a clear heart, that i know what i am to be expected of you. 

i pray that you guide me in my decision of leadership and with work.

I pray for wisdom in my actions, dillegence in my education, and  meaning in my relationships.

i pray that you remain sovereign in my life

i pray that you bless the people we are with working with tomorrow. That you guide our hands and lead us as we help build and rebuild what was lost. 

i pray for the people who are not able to make it, that they are blessed by our actions non otherless

and i pray for a good nights rest, that you make more of what is little, and turn minutes into hours.

amen